A Goodreads Choice Awards Nominee
A Book of the Month Club Pick
A Book of the Year Nominee for BOMC
A Best Book of the Year for Marie Claire

A beautifully-written, deeply-felt exploration of what it means to love and be loved. Jill Santopolo, New York Times bestselling author of The Light We Lost

Vulnerable, tender, and impossible to put down.” Kirkus (starred)

Fans of The Midnight Library will identify with Adelaide’s journey.” Booklist

The vulnerable, raw, and heartfelt debut about coming of age, unrequited love, and the power of self-discovery

For twenty-six-year-old Adelaide Williams, an American living in dreamy London, meeting Rory Hughes was like a lightning bolt out of the blue: this charming Englishman was The One she wasnt even looking for.

Does he respond to texts? Honor his commitments? Make advance plans? Sometimes, rarely, and no, not at all. But when he shines his light on her, the world makes sense, and Adelaide is convinced that, in his heart, hes fallen just as deeply as she has. Then, when Rory is rocked by an unexpected tragedy, Adelaide does everything in her power to hold him togethereven if it means losing herself in the process.

With unflinching honesty and heart, this relatable debut from a fresh new voice explores grief and mental health while capturing the timeless nature of what its like to be young and in lovewith your friends, with your city, and with a person who cannot, will not, love you back.