Paperback | 304 pages

This book will make you cry, think, and then cry some more.
Nicola Yoon, #1 New York Times bestselling author ofEverything, Everything

From theNew York Timesbestselling author ofMore Happy Than Notcomes an explosive examination of grief, mental illness, and the devastating consequences of refusing to let go of the past.

When Griffins first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future hes been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffins downward spiral continues. Hes losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets hes been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

Story Locale:Los Angeles, CA